new and old, AS ONE …

I took this photo from the top of Hook Mountain on the morning of my birthday. It was a gorgeous day, a perfect day really, and not just because I was born on that day. (Although, let’s be honest, the world became a better place when I joined it.) The weather was glorious. As you can see, the sun sparkled on the Hudson River, the sky was clear blue and there was stillness all around me. And this view, OMG. I could sit here for hours, however, on this day, my desire was to move my body around outside! The bridge in the background is the Tappan Zee Bridge (this description is of course for the many non-New Yorkers that follow my blog). There are actually 2 bridges there, one old and one new. The new is currently under construction and makes for really fascinating, and dangerous, site-seeing when driving across the old bridge. It is pretty damn cool to see this 3 mile long bridge go up though!

Might seem weird to compare my birthday to this bridge, but this is what came up for me around this observation! As I view the old and the new together, I think about my life and my being. Per the numbers, I am getting “older” … yet I feel “newer.” Newer is a better adjective, for me anyway, than younger. When I came into this world, everything was new. I was innocent and observant and fearless and open and loving. I knew no different and had no way of knowing any different … YET. I am still that person, that is all still inside me. However, I am having to relearn it all and reclaim my beautiful open self. I am aware of it and work on it in some magnitude every day of my life now. So, each day, I really do feel newer. New to how I view things. New to how I accept and embrace things. New to how I feel about myself. New to how I feel about others. When you live in the present moment, every moment is new. Doesn’t that sound way more exciting than living in the painful past or having expectations for a future that may never come? Trust me, I know it’s not easy, but it’s absolutely possible for all of us. And it starts with awareness. Come on, let’s do this together … can you say TEAMWORK!?!?

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above AND below …

 
So this happened on Saturday. Obviously this was not intended to be part of my B&W photo series (unless I could predict its future awesomeness). However I could not resist sharing this photo with you. This is the Hudson River from Nyack Beach Park. And the way this tree hangs over the water … come on, could it be any more perfect?! And the sun rays, seriously?!?!

I was feeling rather emotional that morning, so I sat at the edge of the water, watching it wave and splash against the concrete wall upon which I sat; watching the way the sun hit the water. And then my emotional self got all deep … I started thinking about how the water constantly moves, changing its shape, energy, color, etc and how it will never ever be exactly the same as what I saw in that instant. It also has no idea what shape it will take on next. It just is.

I thought about how this relates to me and how much I’ve grown in the past few years and how I will never be the same ever again either. Making such major positive changes in my life can only keep me moving forward. Every moment of my life is new and I will strive to be open to this always. There are times that I just want to let my life be like the river that “just is” … yet, my brain gets in the way of that quite often. I am very much living in my head these days, so I intend to work on grounding myself more. Continuing to hike and connect to the earth through my feet will surely help, along with eating root veggies and drinking grounding herbs. I need to remember to also strive for BALANCE in being grounded yet also connecting to my higher self. Game on.

back LIGHT, DARK front …

Back to the forest I never appreciated as a young girl. This is a recent photo from Harriman State Park where I went on a lone hike. I was pretty much alone the entire time, which adds to my level of peacefulness (no offense, fellow hikers). Walking in the woods is so incredibly meditative … my mind calms, my body relaxes and my spirit brightens. Although, I actually took this photo at the end of my hike while sitting on a rock next to the parking area eating homemade trail mix. But, I was still in the zone and not really wanting to leave ;)

a REFLECTION of nature …

This is one of many beautiful photos taken during one of many transformational moments of my life. I took this at Omega in Rhinebeck, NY (you all know by now … that’s where my life in a tent took place). I did go out on the water once with my pal Alan, and it was quite glorious and peaceful out there, at times just floating along, laying down staring up at the clear blue sky, soaking in the fresh air. Yeah, that was peace. Oh, nature, how I need you.

now AND then …

This photo was taken near a lake I used to go to often with my cousins when we were kids. Then, there was a sense of family and tradition. Now, we all live our separate lives and rarely communicate. Then, I didn’t see the beauty in this forest. Now, I can’t get enough of it. Then, the snow was super fun. Now, I wonder why I still live in a place with winter weather.

Life is full of then and nows, but the only moment worth living in is RIGHT NOW. This very second. So, make it the best second of your life.