beautiful CHAOS …

This kind of describes my life right now … or I should say, it describes my brain right now. So many beautiful fabulous ideas and adventures swirling around in there, yet sometimes (ok, most of the time), it feels chaotic and frazzled. This is kind of how it sounds in my head … Yay!, cool idea, love this, let’s do it, I’m so excited, oh, and then there’s this other idea, so fun, I should SO do this, Woot Woot!, 75 (slight numeric exaggeration) other ideas float in, more excitement, Woo Hoo!, Yay!, let’s do all of this, I got this! … and then … fuck no, I ain’t got this. At all. I can’t possibly do all of this. I can’t even think about all of this, let alone physically do it. So, then I get stuck. Unable to do anything, because I’ve overwhelmed myself.

I have been pretty independent for most of my adult life, so asking for help with any of these ideas is new territory for me. I’ve realized over the last couple of years that I can’t do everything on my own anymore, and more importantly, I realized that I don’t WANT to. So, I suppose that all of this is new territory … I have a newfound understanding that I CAN do what I love and be abundant and happy, I do have a creative mind and soul and I need to use it regularly, I am in this world to help others heal, I am truly capable of doing anything and everything I desire … All of these realizations is why I have so many ideas and amazing things I want to do. I’m just having to learn how to say no sometimes, and to focus my attention on one task at a time, and know when to ask for help, and to trust my intuition. I use essential oils for some of these things, and I just learned of a time management technique called the Pomodoro technique (which I’m using right now as I type this) to aid in focusing. I’ve experimented with a number of different things over the past year and a half to find what works for me. Obviously, I’m still experimenting ;)

I’m not sure if I’ve shared this with you before, but I’ve struggled with time management and paying attention since I left my corporate job in 2015. Having a consistent 9-5 schedule every day is an easy lifestyle. Boring (at least for me), but easy. Now, I can do anything any time of day and have complete control over my life and career. And I’ll be honest, that’s a fucking hard transition, hence why I’m still experimenting.

It’s funny that as I’m re-reading this blog post, it sounds less cohesive than some of my other posts and a bit frazzled, if you will. Hmmmm, maybe I should go get those oils …

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chasing FOG …

I chased the fog today, literally. I was driving home and then turned the opposite way when I exited the parkway (I know, crazy, right?!). Toward less homes and more forest. Less cars and more trees. Less congestion and more clarity. Less in my head and more in my heart … at least for a short while …

There was some snowfall yesterday and all of the turnoffs on the roads were covered in 4″ of snow. Something a Ford Focus is not cut out for. So I kept driving until I found a road to turn on, parked and ran across the street to admire and photograph the foggy forest. This was one of the first photos I took, and within a minute (for real) the fog started lifting. How quickly things can come in and out of our lives … So, I ran down the hill (felt more like a skip as I was in good spirits at the time) chasing the fog for more photo ops. Then I realized I should probably get back to my unlocked still-running car pretty much parked in the road. So, I excitedly ran back up the hill, floating through what was left of the fog.

Look at how the fog beautifully highlighted the depth of the forest! It was such a dreamy peaceful feeling for me (hence the skipping and floating). I am so grateful to have been up and out that early to catch this natural beauty :)

as GOOD a place as any …

Just put those anywhere. Oh, here’s some lovely bushes and trees. That’ll be a perfect spot to throw a bunch of broken down crates. This isn’t a typical place for these objects, but if we did everything “typically,” life would be really fucking boring. Plus they add some serious character to those plants!

“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” -Dr. Wayne Dyer

straight AND wavy …

Just like my hairstyles last week!!!

I was drawn to this hairy vine curving it’s way up (or down) this tree. I wonder why it chose this particular course. I presume it was not for my visual enjoyment and cool photo opportunity? … OR was it?!?!? Hmmmm, nature, you so crazy.

I see it as there were nutrients and good energy along this tree trunk in the areas that the vine attached to and that paved it’s path through life. The same applies to humans. Bring in good nutrients, walk through life with positive energy, and a beautiful path will unfold before you. And yes, it will be windy and bumpy and throw you off course at times, but all those hurdles are necessary to growth. Breathe through it, love yourself and be open to every adventure that comes your way.

Damn, life is cool.

 

back LIGHT, DARK front …

Back to the forest I never appreciated as a young girl. This is a recent photo from Harriman State Park where I went on a lone hike. I was pretty much alone the entire time, which adds to my level of peacefulness (no offense, fellow hikers). Walking in the woods is so incredibly meditative … my mind calms, my body relaxes and my spirit brightens. Although, I actually took this photo at the end of my hike while sitting on a rock next to the parking area eating homemade trail mix. But, I was still in the zone and not really wanting to leave ;)

now AND then …

This photo was taken near a lake I used to go to often with my cousins when we were kids. Then, there was a sense of family and tradition. Now, we all live our separate lives and rarely communicate. Then, I didn’t see the beauty in this forest. Now, I can’t get enough of it. Then, the snow was super fun. Now, I wonder why I still live in a place with winter weather.

Life is full of then and nows, but the only moment worth living in is RIGHT NOW. This very second. So, make it the best second of your life.

yin AND yang …

 

black AND white . light AND shadow . sun AND moon

Welcome to this week’s black and white photo series. All shot with my iPhone. All seen through my eyes. All natural images from my various life experiences. All exhibiting my love for extreme contrast. Opposites are essential to the universe. Balancing these opposites is essential to a peaceful life.

SPRING peaks through …

 
How can you sprout some new life inside yourselves today? It’s ok to start small like this little green guy. He’s shooting through those old dried up leaves ready to take charge of his new life! “Watch out world, I’m comin’ for ya” (I hate to put words in his mouth, but if I was that plant, that’s what I’d say anyway.)

It’s almost Spring. Spring cleaning. New awakenings. Reset areas of your life that need some fresh energy!

I AM HOME …

 

The past 2 days, I had to wake up at 5:30am for work. You would think with a name like Dawn, it would be easier for me to get up in the morning. Not so much. My heart really wants to get up early to start my day, yet my body still says “um, how about not.” For a short time, it was easier when the sun was shining bright at 6:30-7am. Then we changed the clocks and now it’s darker in the morning again. Regardless of the brightness outside, I’m working on staying true to my name and rising to a new and beautiful dawn every day.

So, waking up at 5:30am (not that I actually got out of bed at that time) was just enough time to get my beautiful self ready to face other humans in the world. Therefore, meditating did not happen before I left, which is part of my morning practice every day. It did turn out to be an absolutely gorgeous morning, so after our work meeting, I went for a short hike intermixed with a walking meditation. Mantra of choice: I am Home. I (right foot step) … am (left foot step) … home (right foot step) … I (left foot step) … am (right foot step) … home (left foot step). Did you feel yourself slow down while reading that?

I was looking out at all of this nature stuff and those were the words that came to mind. It was a reminder that Home lives within me. When I feel completely comfortable in my Home, I will feel comfortable anywhere. I will also find it easier to open the door to my Home and let others in: to be more vulnerable and open to love. Right now, it’s kinda like I have a Dutch door ;)