Discomfort. Pain. Tension. Agitation. Nausea. I have learned to be intune to my body. To listen. And right now, with all of those feelings happening at once, it’s got something pretty important to say. Releasing old wounds can lead to discomfort. As can holding onto them. I’m not quite sure which it is for me right now. Or maybe a combination? What I do know is that it feels soooo incredibly uncomfortable. I’m trying to sit with it and learn from it, as much as I want to push it away and ignore it. Only thing is, my body has made it too intense to ignore. It knows me all too well at this point. And for that I am grateful. Grateful to myself for all of the work I’ve done to get to this deep place within myself. Grateful even for the pain. And I will be so so grateful for the light that’s on the other side of this pain, as I know that’s where I’m headed. I will keep working to be patient and listen and accept all that comes my way. However, I’m not opposed to this discomfort subsiding sooner than later ;)
I almost forgot to share these cards today! However, they would still apply to tomorrow and the next day and every day, forever. This is one of the many creative things I get to do at my awesome job. For those of you who don’t know, I work at lululemon and made these cards for our guests to attach to their Valentine’s gifts of fabulous workout gear. Now a couple of the sayings make waaaaaay more sense, right? ;)
Happy Day of Love, every day, forever.
The truth is in the stillness. When you can be quietly with yourself, all sorts of things will raise their tiny heads (I’m changing the expression to make it nicer). Good and not-so-good things. However, the “not-so-good” is necessary to lead you to the good, so embrace it all. I had a massage yesterday, which was one of my moments of quiet. An hour long moment with my body and mind (well, and a massage therapist). For example, I relearned that I like having my face touched, in a gentle way of course ;) and I realized that my body is so far along in its healing process that it almost feels “finished” and I realized that there are places of tension I didn’t know were there and I realized that I can relax and be still for an hour now! And other things that didn’t stick around for long but served their purpose in the moment. It’s not always easy to be silent, even for a few seconds for some people. Yet, that silence could open up so many pathways to healing. So try for just a few seconds. And then a few minutes. And then get an hour massage ;) And just notice. And listen.
As some of you know, I had a frozen shoulder back in August last year. And if you are unfamiliar with a frozen shoulder, it means I literally couldn’t move my shoulder and therefore my entire arm – ya know, it was frozen. Without assistance, my arm was glued to the side of my body and I could only move it about 2″ away from my hip. So, yeah, that hurt. I moved it anyway, pushing it through the excruciating pain. Even 1/4″ felt like an accomplishment. And my mom moved it for me in wider ranges of motion. I started seeing a chiropractor a few days after the freeze and that helped immensely to get things moving around. I worked on the emotional part through reiki and through personal awareness and self-love. I started exercising again the second I felt I could, even though it still hurt at first. The area with the most discomfort has significantly improved, as in I barely feel it anymore (and if you don’t recall or know, I’ve had this discomfort for at least 8 years), even with yoga and challenging workouts. I can’t even explain how amazing that feels.
At the beginning of my work with my chiropractor, my back scan showed RED (caution! danger!) in the area around my right shoulder, equating to serious pressure on the nerves going to that area. Last week, being 6 months later (damn, time flies), the scan was GREEN (danger averted!) in that area. I could feel the change, and then to see it made it extra awesome! This is all connected to my life being on the right path right now. I am releasing all the icky stuff and bringing out a whole and healthy body, mind and spirit…fuck yes!
I am no different than any of you, so you can find your path too. If and when you are ready. I did not get here alone though. I discovered the need for outside love and support from friends, classmates, family and the universe. It is all there if you open yourself up to it…
I chased the fog today, literally. I was driving home and then turned the opposite way when I exited the parkway (I know, crazy, right?!). Toward less homes and more forest. Less cars and more trees. Less congestion and more clarity. Less in my head and more in my heart … at least for a short while …
There was some snowfall yesterday and all of the turnoffs on the roads were covered in 4″ of snow. Something a Ford Focus is not cut out for. So I kept driving until I found a road to turn on, parked and ran across the street to admire and photograph the foggy forest. This was one of the first photos I took, and within a minute (for real) the fog started lifting. How quickly things can come in and out of our lives … So, I ran down the hill (felt more like a skip as I was in good spirits at the time) chasing the fog for more photo ops. Then I realized I should probably get back to my unlocked still-running car pretty much parked in the road. So, I excitedly ran back up the hill, floating through what was left of the fog.
Look at how the fog beautifully highlighted the depth of the forest! It was such a dreamy peaceful feeling for me (hence the skipping and floating). I am so grateful to have been up and out that early to catch this natural beauty :)
Creativity is intelligence having fun. -Albert Einstein
Albert must have been one fun dude. Now, it’s our turn. Go create something. Anything. If you need some ideas, check out this word collage I created a while back! You can’t even imagine how much FUN that was to make ;)
You may remember I said I would post more beautiful pumpkin pics. Well, it is Halloween after all. I hope everyone and their kiddos had a safe and Happy Halloween full of not-too-much yummy sugary crappy candy. I admit that I had 4 tiny pieces myself as we had candy at work for mall trick-or-treating ;) My favorite little munchkin to come into the store was a tiny 3 year old Chubaka. O.M.G. BE-yond adorable. What was your fave costume of the night???
It’s been a gloomy cold emotional day today. If I don’t have real sunflowers to brighten the day, this beautiful photo will surely work (at least partly)! I am very grateful for days like this as they teach me a lot about what I have to continue working on in my healing process. And then I am grateful for recognizing the beauty in things that can change my mindset from gloomy to bright(er).
I just found this rather cute appropriate quote, and it made me chuckle:
“It’s ok to be a glowstick; sometimes you need to break before you shine.”