I hike this mountain fairly often and this morning, I came upon this. There are a whole lot of hateful words on the top of this mountain so I was happy to see this (minus the fact that someone vandalized nature). And speaking of vandalizing nature, I left a LUV sticks up there today too ;) Spread some love wherever you can – through words, actions, energy, whatever feels right to you and your fabulously beating heart – the world needs it! ♥
Discomfort. Pain. Tension. Agitation. Nausea. I have learned to be intune to my body. To listen. And right now, with all of those feelings happening at once, it’s got something pretty important to say. Releasing old wounds can lead to discomfort. As can holding onto them. I’m not quite sure which it is for me right now. Or maybe a combination? What I do know is that it feels soooo incredibly uncomfortable. I’m trying to sit with it and learn from it, as much as I want to push it away and ignore it. Only thing is, my body has made it too intense to ignore. It knows me all too well at this point. And for that I am grateful. Grateful to myself for all of the work I’ve done to get to this deep place within myself. Grateful even for the pain. And I will be so so grateful for the light that’s on the other side of this pain, as I know that’s where I’m headed. I will keep working to be patient and listen and accept all that comes my way. However, I’m not opposed to this discomfort subsiding sooner than later ;)
Every morning (lately anyway), I arise at 7am. Even though the sunshine streaming through my windows and my early-riser of a cat (Luna, my ass … that’s her name: Luna) tell me I should wake up even earlier. Then, as most of us do, I go pee. Then I return to my room and my piled-up-yoga-blanket meditation seat for a 10-15 minute meditation. RPM as they call it: Rise, Pee, Meditate. And at the end of every meditation, I give thanks for my beautiful body and the beautiful earth for supporting me in my practice. How beautiful (come on, it’s just such a great word!) to start every day giving gratitude, and especially to the new day (i.e. Dawn).
Giving thanks to me and acknowledging my body and what it does for me is also a pretty big deal. I spent many years – ok, basically my entire life – working on my body (through exercise and then many years eating healthy), yet rarely acknowledged what I was actually doing for myself. I didn’t admire my body. Or congratulate myself. Or embrace the positive feelings and energy associated with exercise and eating well. Often, I wanted more and so nothing was ever quite good enough. I would do it though, and I would do it a lot. And then, I would go on with the rest of my days. Like working out for hours didn’t mean anything. Though, deep deep down, at a subconscious level, I knew it did and I knew I needed it to feel confident in my skin. Mostly, working out and eating well was all I had to feel confident. Well shit, I should be grateful for that too then! Thanks again body for doing what you needed even though I didn’t yet understand – YOU ROCK!
Today, following RPM, I went for a hike. My body and the earth connecting at the deepest level (for me, anyway). Connected physically and spiritually and everything in between. Such gratitude for my overall health to be able to hike steep mountains (I made that possible! – remember, I’m a big deal) and to the exquisite nature that surrounds me where I live right now. Such a BEAUTIFUL combination.
This is kinda what life feels like right now. However, I could probably add an up/down arrow too. And maybe a few diagonal arrows. I’m feeling pulled by the universe in a direction that will serve me, obviously. Yet, there are things I’m currently doing that are in different directions. Plus, there’s a long list of things I want to do. So which way do I go? What do I do? How do I get “there“?
Moments before I took this photo, I had been pulled up to the top of a mountain. I set out to hike a slightly challenging yet quick trail, out and back. The second I stepped on that rocky trail, my body just went, and didn’t stop until I reached the top. I felt an energetic pull (or push?) to get up the mountain. Even through heavy breath, I kept going at a quick pace. My mind and body felt at ease, peaceful and connected to that universe. You know, the one that’s pulling me in the right direction, which, at that moment, was up a mountain. The second I reached the top, emotion washed over me and I got choked up. It was a beautiful feeling. Trusting myself and the universe can produce amazing things. And for me, nature REALLY helps with that too …
Remember to connect to those things in your life that bring you ease and peace. And trust that it is what you need, that it is necessary to feed your heart and soul. XOXO
As some of you know, I had a frozen shoulder back in August last year. And if you are unfamiliar with a frozen shoulder, it means I literally couldn’t move my shoulder and therefore my entire arm – ya know, it was frozen. Without assistance, my arm was glued to the side of my body and I could only move it about 2″ away from my hip. So, yeah, that hurt. I moved it anyway, pushing it through the excruciating pain. Even 1/4″ felt like an accomplishment. And my mom moved it for me in wider ranges of motion. I started seeing a chiropractor a few days after the freeze and that helped immensely to get things moving around. I worked on the emotional part through reiki and through personal awareness and self-love. I started exercising again the second I felt I could, even though it still hurt at first. The area with the most discomfort has significantly improved, as in I barely feel it anymore (and if you don’t recall or know, I’ve had this discomfort for at least 8 years), even with yoga and challenging workouts. I can’t even explain how amazing that feels.
At the beginning of my work with my chiropractor, my back scan showed RED (caution! danger!) in the area around my right shoulder, equating to serious pressure on the nerves going to that area. Last week, being 6 months later (damn, time flies), the scan was GREEN (danger averted!) in that area. I could feel the change, and then to see it made it extra awesome! This is all connected to my life being on the right path right now. I am releasing all the icky stuff and bringing out a whole and healthy body, mind and spirit…fuck yes!
I am no different than any of you, so you can find your path too. If and when you are ready. I did not get here alone though. I discovered the need for outside love and support from friends, classmates, family and the universe. It is all there if you open yourself up to it…
I supported my beautiful coworker Courtney today in a Vision & Goals workshop for the new hires at work. It was such a great and rewarding experience for all involved! I so enjoyed hearing everyone’s amazing 10-year visions for their lives and the personal values that guide their visions. Each so different and magical and full of adventure. And scary. What’s that song lyric … “if your dreams don’t scare you, they ain’t big enough” … not quite the form of “English” I would have chosen, but you get what I’m sayin’. We should be nervous about the bad ass possibilities we can create in our lives. We can choose to be safe and comfortable and “normal,” but where’s the fun and excitement in that?
Create a wild and crazy spectacular vision for yourself in 10 years where money, time and experience don’t exist. Zero constraints. Trust me, you can do this. Close your eyes and visualize, then write it all down, every fabulous morsel. It’s a very exciting exercise that will change your mindset around what you truly truly want in your life!!!
Creativity is intelligence having fun. -Albert Einstein
Albert must have been one fun dude. Now, it’s our turn. Go create something. Anything. If you need some ideas, check out this word collage I created a while back! You can’t even imagine how much FUN that was to make ;)
Your brain doesn’t know the difference between fake (or faux) and real smiles/laughter. So when you do these things, your brain releases endorphins and other happy hormones throughout your body. And then your body will want more and more of this happy feeling, cause we all know it likes it better than the opposite emotion, so you’ll start to “automatically” feel happier in your life. Smiling also reduces stress and improves immunity. So come on, show me some of them fake smiles, or laugh your ass off for no reason at all!!!
… shit, I really need to take my own advice on this one ;)