big BLUE …

Blue. The color associated with the throat chakra. Blue. The color of my eyes. Interestingly, I had kept both of them partially closed up to all those around me – strangers, loved ones, myself – for most of my past life.

Throat chakra … communication, speaking your truth, expression. Today, I took a beautiful meditation class at M N D F L in Greenwich Village. In the middle of the meditation, I got an intense tickle in my throat and REALLY needed to cough. However, I did not feel inclined to break the stillness in the room with a cough attack. So, I held it back. And my eyes started to tear. And I was quickly reminded of being a child afraid to cough for fear of attracting attention to my “noise.” How sad, right? And coughing was no different than my words. I was afraid of being heard. Afraid of being me. And so I held it back, kept it all inside. No wonder holding in a cough results in tears. Coughing is a vocal release. It is part of my voice (not my “noise”). And I have definitely learned that holding in my words will also result in tears. It may have taken some years, but those guys flow easier these days. It’s my time to release. Time to be free of those old stories. Time to express who I am and fuck being afraid of it. I’m the only one afraid of me. Let’s be honest, everyone else thinks I’m pretty rad.

My eyes. Those big blue beauties – if I let them be, anyway. I’ve also held them back. Kept them tucked away under squinty half-opened eyelids. If people can’t see ALL of my eyes, then they can’t see me and what I’m REALLY about. Who’s that hurting? Yup, you guessed it – me again! I’ve actually noticed that my eyes are tired of being half-open … I don’t know what muscles are in my face that control my eyelids, but they’re tiiiiired of squinting for 30+ years. Now, I’m working on that face muscle memory ;) and awareness of the tightness that just doesn’t feel good anymore. The beautiful thing is that when I open my eyes wide, I can see the world. Like a whole bunch more of it. And I feel like I’m a bigger part of it. And I feel more open to welcoming in others.

Open your throat (or voice for a less gruesome visual). Let yourself be heard.
Open your eyes. Let yourself be seen.
And your heart will automatically open as well …

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have you ever tried to CHANGE someone?

“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” -Albert Einstein

We have all wanted someone in our lives to be someone else. To be exactly what we want them to be to better serve ourselves. That sounds lovely … if it were at all possible. No one can change if they aren’t willing to, and even more so, if they have no idea that they need to. Many people are fine in their content robotic lives where things are simple and comfortable and safe (feeling grounded is real, people). I am not one of those people (at least for the most part). Living my life in the opposite manner comes with a lot of challenges and fears and discomfort. And all of that has led to so many adventures and learnings and me starting to truly understand ME. My needs, my desires, my calling, my purpose …

Yet, I still have people in my life that I want to change. Because I think that they should. Because I know that life can be happier and more fulfilling. So, why would you just not do it? I try to help and advise, and help and advise, and help and advise some more and … you get my drift. I feel like I’m making myself insane sometimes. Like banging my head against the wall will gain the exact same results. All I can do is continue to love and nourish ME and shine my light on all those around me. And things will shift. Maybe in others, maybe not. But, shifting will surely happen in me, which will shift all of my relationships in a positive way.

There is a piece of me in every person that I want to change, as we are all reflections of each other. The things that trouble me and challenge me the most in these people are most likely the things in myself I have yet to work on, or that still need a little extra love and attention to finally be free of! Remember this the next time you get angry at or shut down around someone. We are all born as loving little baby humans. Love is our natural instinct. Once we can find that love for ourselves again, it will radiate out all over the world!!!

ox LOVE LOVE LOVE xo

 

this GUY …

I am pretty sure I blogged about this GUY last year after I saw him live for the first time. Sean Rowe. If you didn’t listen to his music when I suggested it last year and you have a heart and a soul, you need to listen to it now. The only words I can use to describe him and his music are deep, magical and dreeeeeamy. Pretty damn good words, I’d say.

And, yes, that’s li’l ol’ me nestled into his embrace. OMG, I loved that moment. Hearts and butterflies and unicorns and all things happiness …

beautiful CHAOS …

This kind of describes my life right now … or I should say, it describes my brain right now. So many beautiful fabulous ideas and adventures swirling around in there, yet sometimes (ok, most of the time), it feels chaotic and frazzled. This is kind of how it sounds in my head … Yay!, cool idea, love this, let’s do it, I’m so excited, oh, and then there’s this other idea, so fun, I should SO do this, Woot Woot!, 75 (slight numeric exaggeration) other ideas float in, more excitement, Woo Hoo!, Yay!, let’s do all of this, I got this! … and then … fuck no, I ain’t got this. At all. I can’t possibly do all of this. I can’t even think about all of this, let alone physically do it. So, then I get stuck. Unable to do anything, because I’ve overwhelmed myself.

I have been pretty independent for most of my adult life, so asking for help with any of these ideas is new territory for me. I’ve realized over the last couple of years that I can’t do everything on my own anymore, and more importantly, I realized that I don’t WANT to. So, I suppose that all of this is new territory … I have a newfound understanding that I CAN do what I love and be abundant and happy, I do have a creative mind and soul and I need to use it regularly, I am in this world to help others heal, I am truly capable of doing anything and everything I desire … All of these realizations is why I have so many ideas and amazing things I want to do. I’m just having to learn how to say no sometimes, and to focus my attention on one task at a time, and know when to ask for help, and to trust my intuition. I use essential oils for some of these things, and I just learned of a time management technique called the Pomodoro technique (which I’m using right now as I type this) to aid in focusing. I’ve experimented with a number of different things over the past year and a half to find what works for me. Obviously, I’m still experimenting ;)

I’m not sure if I’ve shared this with you before, but I’ve struggled with time management and paying attention since I left my corporate job in 2015. Having a consistent 9-5 schedule every day is an easy lifestyle. Boring (at least for me), but easy. Now, I can do anything any time of day and have complete control over my life and career. And I’ll be honest, that’s a fucking hard transition, hence why I’m still experimenting.

It’s funny that as I’m re-reading this blog post, it sounds less cohesive than some of my other posts and a bit frazzled, if you will. Hmmmm, maybe I should go get those oils …

just say THANK YOU … 

This is how to accept compliments. Just say “thank you.” It’s that simple, and we make it waaaay more complicated (by explaining where you got the shirt someone just told you they really liked, or how much the shirt cost, or turning it back on them saying you like their shirt too…). Just say “thank you.” I was taught this only recently by my life coach. At 37 years old, I finally knew how to accept a compliment. And also learned that when you simply say thank you and embrace the compliment, you will receive more compliments. Funny how that works. So many people don’t know how to accept their partners praise, yet question why they don’t get complimented more often (I’ve soooo been that person!). It goes both ways. Just say THANK YOU. And see what shifts, in you and in those around you.

What’s that? You think my blog is awesome. Thank you.

this shit just got REAL …

You are all like, yes Dawn, we GET IT ALREADY, you’re a Health Coach. YES, I AM!!!! And look at this pretty certificate that says so. Once I received it, my friend Sara made it very clear to me that I better frame this! Probably because she knows I might not display my accomplishment as I should. I will do it this time though. I promise, Sara. This is BIG. [FYI, I haven’t done it yet though.]

Do you wanna know what a Health Coach does and what I want to do with this amazing new role in my life?!?! Yes, of course you do. As a Health Coach, I work with my clients on improving their lifestyles to live happy fulfilling amazing lives! And I do this by helping them to improve their diet bringing in healthier feel-good options to crowd out the unhealthy ones. Even more importantly, we dive deeper into what is called “Primary Food,” referring to relationships, career, spirituality and physical activity. So, yes, eating more greens will surely improve your health, and looking at your life as a whole will REALLY improve your health. This is a holistic approach. We need to feed our mind, body and soul to feel whole and to feel truly happy. So, if you’re ready to live the greatest life ever, please reach out to me! I am here to fully support you and to listen to you and to guide you along the path you were meant to be on in this world.

I would like to focus my coaching on women seeking ways to manage stress in their careers (which of course translates to every other area of life), and/or looking to transition to the career of their dreams. This is part of my story and how I came to be right here, so I am very excited to work with like-minded strong beautiful women. FYI, that’s all of you, you just may have lost touch with it for a little while. I’m here to help you un-block it! So let’s do this!!!

love + [first] light

XO dawn
www.firstlightwellness.com
firstlightwellness@gmail.com

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hummus = HAPPINESS …

So this happened for the first time ever in my life. I know, I know, some of you are thinking how the hell has this gal never made hummus until now?! Welp, I can’t really answer that. However, I can now say that I have made hummus from scratch. And that shit was goooood. I even made the chick peas from scratch. Fancy, I  know. The first batch I made with fresh lemon juice. Then realized I had enough chickpeas left (but no lemon left) to make another batch to freeze. So I used doTERRA lemon essential oil and YUM. Like seriously, YUM. Definitely a different flavor as essential oils are more intense, yet equally delicious. I always seem to make do with what I have layin’ around ;)

IMMUNITY in a pot …

Chicken soup is so easy to make and one of the healthiest things to eat. OH, and quite delicious too. Even I ask myself, “why don’t I make this more often?” The bones are where it’s at though; the meat is secondary and not important at all for the immune-boosting nutritious benefits. So, I buy chicken bones from the grocery store. And at Thanksgiving, I take the giant carcass home. And if I roast a chicken, I keep all the bones for soup … a 2-in-1 meal! Then, as you can see from the photo, I add a whole bunch of other delicious nutritiousness…

Literally, this is how easy it is to make soup: Throw bones in a big pot. Fill pot with water. Chop any and all veggies (For this one, I used carrots, turnips, celery, onion) and throw in the pot. Add spices that you like (I used lots of turmeric, cayenne, parsley, oregano, black pepper, thyme, seaweed flakes, bay leaves, fresh garlic). And that beautiful red pile is goji berries (optional, of course). Bring to a boil, then simmer for 2.5-3 hours. Toward the end of cooking, I also added freeze-dried shiitake mushrooms and sea salt. Your house will smell amazing, but you may have to keep walking outside and back in so you can get the full aroma again and again.

There’s really no need to measure, as you can’t mess it up. The most important part is the bones, so if that’s all you have in there, then you’re golden! If it makes too much, throw half in the freezer when you need some immune boosting in your life.

Your body will thank you … in the following ways:

  • Bone Broth – immune boosting, gut nourishing, helps body to absorb nutrients, hair/skin/nail/joint health
  • Goji Berries – immune boosting, strength-building, aid in longevity
  • Turmeric – anti-inflammatory, boosts brain and heart health, antioxidant
  • Cayenne – releases mucus/detoxifying, heart health, promotes digestion, helps with circulation/warming
  • Shiitake Mushrooms – immune boosting, heart health, anti-cancer benefits

I could keep going, however, I want you to actually read it ALL, so those are the big guns I listed. Now, go get cookin’ (and if you have any questions, reach out!)

RELEASE those toxins …

I love eggs. Like really love eggs. I used to eat 2-3/day almost every day. Then, I did an elimination diet a few months ago and discovered that eggs make me phlegmy (it may be gross, but it’ll tell you a lot about your body). I had to decrease the large number of eggs I ate each week to eating 1-3 per month. It was a sad sad day for me when I made this discovery.  Most likely the phlegm is from the white part, not the nutrient-rich delectable yolk part that I love so much, but still not ideal or convenient; plus, the white part does serve its purpose in binding foods together.

Until I am ready to give up eggs for 6 months in order to rid myself of this egg sensitivity, I drink a detox tonic after I eat an egg. You may not have an egg thing like me, but we all have toxins going into our bodies every day, from chemicals to pollution to processed foods and alcohol, etc … You or your child may have other food sensitivities or a cold/flu and need to release those toxins from your body so it can work better and feel healthier. So, drink up …

  • 1 Tbsp apple cider vinegar (raw, with ‘the mother’)
  • 2 tsp honey
  • 1/8 tsp cayenne pepper
  • 2 drops Lemon essential oil (make sure the oil you use is approved for internal use; or 1 Tbsp juice of a lemon)
  • 1/4 cup of water

Combine everything together and ENJOY! It really is delicious. I will warn you that it does have a kick to it – this spice is what helps to loosen things up in the body ;)

i am DEFROSTING …

As some of you know, I had a frozen shoulder back in August last year. And if you are unfamiliar with a frozen shoulder, it means I literally couldn’t move my shoulder and therefore my entire arm – ya know, it was frozen. Without assistance, my arm was glued to the side of my body and I could only move it about 2″ away from my hip. So, yeah, that hurt. I moved it anyway, pushing it through the excruciating pain. Even 1/4″ felt like an accomplishment. And my mom moved it for me in wider ranges of motion. I started seeing a chiropractor a few days after the freeze and that helped immensely to get things moving around. I worked on the emotional part through reiki and through personal awareness and self-love. I started exercising again the second I felt I could, even though it still hurt at first. The area with the most discomfort has significantly improved, as in I barely feel it anymore (and if you don’t recall or know, I’ve had this discomfort for at least 8 years), even with yoga and challenging workouts. I can’t even explain how amazing that feels.

At the beginning of my work with my chiropractor, my back scan showed RED (caution! danger!) in the area around my right shoulder, equating to serious pressure on the nerves going to that area. Last week, being 6 months later (damn, time flies), the scan was GREEN (danger averted!) in that area. I could feel the change, and then to see it made it extra awesome! This is all connected to my life being on the right path right now. I am releasing all the icky stuff and bringing out a whole and healthy body, mind and spirit…fuck yes!

I am no different than any of you, so you can find your path too. If and when you are ready. I did not get here alone though. I discovered the need for outside love and support from friends, classmates, family and the universe. It is all there if you open yourself up to it…