MINDFUL hiking workshops …

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Figured I’d share this on my blog as well cause you never know what other Arizonans follow my blog or will find this post, riiiiight!?!? I’m looking forward to guiding desert dwellers through a healing meditation and small group hike. And looking forward to being a desert dweller myself … again ;)

My website has a brief explanation of each theme and a shop for you to sign up. If you have any individual questions, please reach out as I’d love to hear from you!

See you on the trails! XO

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my first CUPPING …

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I’m guessing some dirty minds are chuckling right now. However, I’m referring to the Eastern medicine technique of cupping. I have been going to acupuncture for a few weeks now and today, she asked me if she could do cupping on my back following my acupuncture treatment. I have never had this done before, so SURE! I had absolutely no idea what I had just agreed to other than my minimal knowledge of what cupping is.

She removes the needles from my back, then walks out of the room and returns with a cute little basket of cute little round jars. Oooo, I love jars! I asked her what it was going to feel like, and she didn’t respond. She just got right to it. Lighting up those jars and suctioning them to my back flesh … holy shit, WHAT. IS. HAPPENING. ?. Suddenly there was nothing cute about those jars and that fucking basket. And at that moment, I realized why she hadn’t responded to my question … because you can’t describe what it feels like to have your entire back sucked off of your skeleton. The tightness. The pulling. WTF?

And then she left me in the room with jars stuck to my back. I was like what the hell is going to happen to me in here. All by myself. With jars stuck to my back. Thankfully, it was only around 5 minutes. And in that 5 minutes, I thought how can she possibly remove these super-powered suction-cups from my skin?!? And I also thought, I’m definitely going to have those round marks like the Olympic swimmers have. Yeah, I’m cool like that. Don’t let me fool you, I did not feel cool in that moment.

Removing them wasn’t a big deal and they made silly popping sounds. And then the magic happened. My back never (at least what I can remember) felt so light and relaxed and open then in that moment. And it took only 5 minutes of cupping. This is the truth behind the power of traditional medicine practices. I realized how much weight I carry in my back, because I now know how light and airy it CAN feel. Now that shit is magic. And it is real. All at the same time.

I am pretty open to all types of holistic healing, which is why I was gung ho to try cupping. And honestly, I would do it again. In the moment, it was really intense. Like INTENSE intense. And because of that, I had a tough time laying there with it even for a short 5 minutes. But, experiencing that feeling of lightness in my back was mind-blowing. Like, WOW, I hold soooooo much in there, and now I am fully aware of it because the weight has been lifted, or at least sucked into some jars. I now truly understand what it feels like to be weighed down and to be lightened up. How cool is that?!? OK, now, I feel cool.

We all need to experience opposition to understand our feelings. We can’t understand happiness without feeling sadness; lightness without darkness; love without hate. So, although I had a tough time with those not-so-cute-anymore jars, they helped me to remember this fact of life. And brought me here to write about it and remind all of you.

In those moments of pain or sadness or other seemingly negative feelings, remember that you need them all to be able to relate to and fully embrace the amazingly positive yummy feelings. This helps to change our perspective in life. To trust that everything, and I mean everything, that happens in your life is meant for you.

Happy Cupping!

LOOK who has emerged …

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Have y’all been wondering where I went? Yeah, me too.

I love blogging … sharing my truth, inspiring others, writing about what I’m feeling or doing or seeing … it’s a beautiful thing. So, seriously, why the hell haven’t I been doing it? Good question. Well, honestly, I am still finding it hard to schedule my life without someone else telling me where I need to be and at what time, so I let some shit go. I am learning to be more patient with myself and accept that this is a learning process. And, at times, I also feel frozen / stuck, not knowing what to do or how to move forward. I want to continue down the path I started down 2 years – doing what I love, making my own schedule, and BLOGGING! Blogging is a creative outlet for me as well, and as I’m writing this, I’m realizing that I have lessened my creative endeavors of all types (although, I will share some creative things soon!). I haven’t been lettering as much, or doodling, or writing, or or or. This seems like a great place to insert a reminder to be patient and accepting with myself. My creativity didn’t just dissolve … a few months not doing it and POOF! GONE! Not so much. I took a break. Not a big deal. Really.

I have also done loads of amazing other things, which I will share in the coming weeks. One being that I turned 40 and had the most amazing celebration. Just had to share that now, cause damn, it was AMAZING.

Catch y’all later. I swear I’ll be back soon …

my body SPEAKS …

Discomfort. Pain. Tension. Agitation. Nausea. I have learned to be intune to my body. To listen. And right now, with all of those feelings happening at once, it’s got something pretty important to say. Releasing old wounds can lead to discomfort. As can holding onto them. I’m not quite sure which it is for me right now. Or maybe a combination? What I do know is that it feels soooo incredibly uncomfortable. I’m trying to sit with it and learn from it, as much as I want to push it away and ignore it. Only thing is, my body has made it too intense to ignore. It knows me all too well at this point. And for that I am grateful. Grateful to myself for all of the work I’ve done to get to this deep place within myself. Grateful even for the pain. And I will be so so grateful for the light that’s on the other side of this pain, as I know that’s where I’m headed. I will keep working to be patient and listen and accept all that comes my way. However, I’m not opposed to this discomfort subsiding sooner than later ;)

big BLUE …

Blue. The color associated with the throat chakra. Blue. The color of my eyes. Interestingly, I had kept both of them partially closed up to all those around me – strangers, loved ones, myself – for most of my past life.

Throat chakra … communication, speaking your truth, expression. Today, I took a beautiful meditation class at M N D F L in Greenwich Village. In the middle of the meditation, I got an intense tickle in my throat and REALLY needed to cough. However, I did not feel inclined to break the stillness in the room with a cough attack. So, I held it back. And my eyes started to tear. And I was quickly reminded of being a child afraid to cough for fear of attracting attention to my “noise.” How sad, right? And coughing was no different than my words. I was afraid of being heard. Afraid of being me. And so I held it back, kept it all inside. No wonder holding in a cough results in tears. Coughing is a vocal release. It is part of my voice (not my “noise”). And I have definitely learned that holding in my words will also result in tears. It may have taken some years, but those guys flow easier these days. It’s my time to release. Time to be free of those old stories. Time to express who I am and fuck being afraid of it. I’m the only one afraid of me. Let’s be honest, everyone else thinks I’m pretty rad.

My eyes. Those big blue beauties – if I let them be, anyway. I’ve also held them back. Kept them tucked away under squinty half-opened eyelids. If people can’t see ALL of my eyes, then they can’t see me and what I’m REALLY about. Who’s that hurting? Yup, you guessed it – me again! I’ve actually noticed that my eyes are tired of being half-open … I don’t know what muscles are in my face that control my eyelids, but they’re tiiiiired of squinting for 30+ years. Now, I’m working on that face muscle memory ;) and awareness of the tightness that just doesn’t feel good anymore. The beautiful thing is that when I open my eyes wide, I can see the world. Like a whole bunch more of it. And I feel like I’m a bigger part of it. And I feel more open to welcoming in others.

Open your throat (or voice for a less gruesome visual). Let yourself be heard.
Open your eyes. Let yourself be seen.
And your heart will automatically open as well …

this shit just got REAL …

You are all like, yes Dawn, we GET IT ALREADY, you’re a Health Coach. YES, I AM!!!! And look at this pretty certificate that says so. Once I received it, my friend Sara made it very clear to me that I better frame this! Probably because she knows I might not display my accomplishment as I should. I will do it this time though. I promise, Sara. This is BIG. [FYI, I haven’t done it yet though.]

Do you wanna know what a Health Coach does and what I want to do with this amazing new role in my life?!?! Yes, of course you do. As a Health Coach, I work with my clients on improving their lifestyles to live happy fulfilling amazing lives! And I do this by helping them to improve their diet bringing in healthier feel-good options to crowd out the unhealthy ones. Even more importantly, we dive deeper into what is called “Primary Food,” referring to relationships, career, spirituality and physical activity. So, yes, eating more greens will surely improve your health, and looking at your life as a whole will REALLY improve your health. This is a holistic approach. We need to feed our mind, body and soul to feel whole and to feel truly happy. So, if you’re ready to live the greatest life ever, please reach out to me! I am here to fully support you and to listen to you and to guide you along the path you were meant to be on in this world.

I would like to focus my coaching on women seeking ways to manage stress in their careers (which of course translates to every other area of life), and/or looking to transition to the career of their dreams. This is part of my story and how I came to be right here, so I am very excited to work with like-minded strong beautiful women. FYI, that’s all of you, you just may have lost touch with it for a little while. I’m here to help you un-block it! So let’s do this!!!

love + [first] light

XO dawn
www.firstlightwellness.com
firstlightwellness@gmail.com

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the TRUTH is in the stillness …

The truth is in the stillness. When you can be quietly with yourself, all sorts of things will raise their tiny heads (I’m changing the expression to make it nicer). Good and not-so-good things. However, the “not-so-good” is necessary to lead you to the good, so embrace it all. I had a massage yesterday, which was one of my moments of quiet. An hour long moment with my body and mind (well, and a massage therapist). For example, I relearned that I like having my face touched, in a gentle way of course ;) and I realized that my body is so far along in its healing process that it almost feels “finished” and I realized that there are places of tension I didn’t know were there and I realized that I can relax and be still for an hour now! And other things that didn’t stick around for long but served their purpose in the moment. It’s not always easy to be silent, even for a few seconds for some people. Yet, that silence could open up so many pathways to healing. So try for just a few seconds. And then a few minutes. And then get an hour massage ;) And just notice. And listen.

i am DEFROSTING …

As some of you know, I had a frozen shoulder back in August last year. And if you are unfamiliar with a frozen shoulder, it means I literally couldn’t move my shoulder and therefore my entire arm – ya know, it was frozen. Without assistance, my arm was glued to the side of my body and I could only move it about 2″ away from my hip. So, yeah, that hurt. I moved it anyway, pushing it through the excruciating pain. Even 1/4″ felt like an accomplishment. And my mom moved it for me in wider ranges of motion. I started seeing a chiropractor a few days after the freeze and that helped immensely to get things moving around. I worked on the emotional part through reiki and through personal awareness and self-love. I started exercising again the second I felt I could, even though it still hurt at first. The area with the most discomfort has significantly improved, as in I barely feel it anymore (and if you don’t recall or know, I’ve had this discomfort for at least 8 years), even with yoga and challenging workouts. I can’t even explain how amazing that feels.

At the beginning of my work with my chiropractor, my back scan showed RED (caution! danger!) in the area around my right shoulder, equating to serious pressure on the nerves going to that area. Last week, being 6 months later (damn, time flies), the scan was GREEN (danger averted!) in that area. I could feel the change, and then to see it made it extra awesome! This is all connected to my life being on the right path right now. I am releasing all the icky stuff and bringing out a whole and healthy body, mind and spirit…fuck yes!

I am no different than any of you, so you can find your path too. If and when you are ready. I did not get here alone though. I discovered the need for outside love and support from friends, classmates, family and the universe. It is all there if you open yourself up to it…

SHINE on …

We’ve had a bunch of gloomy days here lately, and look what today brought! A beautiful sunshiny day. On days like this, I like to take myself to the woods and soak up some nature and feel the sun peering through the leaves. Today was a day of ‘shining on’ for me. I mean, honestly, what day isn’t? … however, the trick is to actually acknowledge it. Today, I went to the gym and the chiropractor to continue healing my body, then went to the woods to continue healing my soul, then went to the library to continue healing my mind. I took test #3 for school … 3/4s of the way through my program!!! Major accomplishment. And I’m acknowledging that. For those that know me well, you know I’m not so good at that acknowledging part. Without acknowledging and celebrating those accomplishments, the things we do in life are kinda pointless. So, I’m working on changing that. One accomplishment at a time … shit, I’ll be praising myself all the time then ;)

Guess what, Dawn? You’re awesome. Now accept it.

What wonderfully small or large thing have you accomplished in the past few days that you haven’t brought awareness to and praised yourself for?? Please share your awesomeness!

starved for PLAY …

On Sunday, I picked up (as in held, not picked up in a car) my nieces and it felt so good. Ignore the fact that that sounds creepy. But, as y’all know, I couldn’t really play with my nieces or pick them up or throw them around (in a fun safe way, of course) with my shoulder pain. I avoided lifting pretty much everything for at least 4 weeks. In that time, I went on vacation and made my friends lift my luggage in and out of cars (love you guys!), I stopped going to the gym, I couldn’t vacuum at work … well, let’s be honest here, I couldn’t even lift my arm itself let alone heavy objects. So, obviously, small humans were not an option. While I was on vacation, my shoulder started to feel unbelievably better and has been feeling so ever since. It just needed a vacation! See how your body can heal when you escape for a bit?! The pain is pretty much gone, and I can move it and lift things again. There is some soreness in the area that’s been bothering me for all these years, and I am also working on getting full range of motion back. I feel positive that I will free this stuckness and be able to move my arm even better than before the frozen shoulder! Hopefully, I can make that happen by throwing my 2.5 year old niece in the air and doing cartwheels with my 7 year old niece…should be fine, right?

I’m so grateful for everyone’s support while I was temporarily dysfunctional. My work team was extremely helpful and understanding. My mom did passive assist arm movements for me since it hurt too much to engage my own muscles. My chiropractor adjusted, lasered and massaged me to decrease the pain and start putting parts back where they belong. My dad gave me money to help with my chiropractor appointments as I didn’t have health insurance at the time. My family and friends checked in to see how I was feeling. My cat snuggled with me. And even I felt more supportive of myself through taking time to rest and breathe. Allow myself to … support myself.

No matter your age, make sure to squeeze some play into your day. It helps to have kids around for sure! I don’t play much myself (so I need to take my own advice) until my nieces are around. And there is no better play than that :)