beautiful CHAOS …

This kind of describes my life right now … or I should say, it describes my brain right now. So many beautiful fabulous ideas and adventures swirling around in there, yet sometimes (ok, most of the time), it feels chaotic and frazzled. This is kind of how it sounds in my head … Yay!, cool idea, love this, let’s do it, I’m so excited, oh, and then there’s this other idea, so fun, I should SO do this, Woot Woot!, 75 (slight numeric exaggeration) other ideas float in, more excitement, Woo Hoo!, Yay!, let’s do all of this, I got this! … and then … fuck no, I ain’t got this. At all. I can’t possibly do all of this. I can’t even think about all of this, let alone physically do it. So, then I get stuck. Unable to do anything, because I’ve overwhelmed myself.

I have been pretty independent for most of my adult life, so asking for help with any of these ideas is new territory for me. I’ve realized over the last couple of years that I can’t do everything on my own anymore, and more importantly, I realized that I don’t WANT to. So, I suppose that all of this is new territory … I have a newfound understanding that I CAN do what I love and be abundant and happy, I do have a creative mind and soul and I need to use it regularly, I am in this world to help others heal, I am truly capable of doing anything and everything I desire … All of these realizations is why I have so many ideas and amazing things I want to do. I’m just having to learn how to say no sometimes, and to focus my attention on one task at a time, and know when to ask for help, and to trust my intuition. I use essential oils for some of these things, and I just learned of a time management technique called the Pomodoro technique (which I’m using right now as I type this) to aid in focusing. I’ve experimented with a number of different things over the past year and a half to find what works for me. Obviously, I’m still experimenting ;)

I’m not sure if I’ve shared this with you before, but I’ve struggled with time management and paying attention since I left my corporate job in 2015. Having a consistent 9-5 schedule every day is an easy lifestyle. Boring (at least for me), but easy. Now, I can do anything any time of day and have complete control over my life and career. And I’ll be honest, that’s a fucking hard transition, hence why I’m still experimenting.

It’s funny that as I’m re-reading this blog post, it sounds less cohesive than some of my other posts and a bit frazzled, if you will. Hmmmm, maybe I should go get those oils …


hummus = HAPPINESS …

So this happened for the first time ever in my life. I know, I know, some of you are thinking how the hell has this gal never made hummus until now?! Welp, I can’t really answer that. However, I can now say that I have made hummus from scratch. And that shit was goooood. I even made the chick peas from scratch. Fancy, I  know. The first batch I made with fresh lemon juice. Then realized I had enough chickpeas left (but no lemon left) to make another batch to freeze. So I used doTERRA lemon essential oil and YUM. Like seriously, YUM. Definitely a different flavor as essential oils are more intense, yet equally delicious. I always seem to make do with what I have layin’ around ;)

RELEASE those toxins …

I love eggs. Like really love eggs. I used to eat 2-3/day almost every day. Then, I did an elimination diet a few months ago and discovered that eggs make me phlegmy (it may be gross, but it’ll tell you a lot about your body). I had to decrease the large number of eggs I ate each week to eating 1-3 per month. It was a sad sad day for me when I made this discovery.  Most likely the phlegm is from the white part, not the nutrient-rich delectable yolk part that I love so much, but still not ideal or convenient; plus, the white part does serve its purpose in binding foods together.

Until I am ready to give up eggs for 6 months in order to rid myself of this egg sensitivity, I drink a detox tonic after I eat an egg. You may not have an egg thing like me, but we all have toxins going into our bodies every day, from chemicals to pollution to processed foods and alcohol, etc … You or your child may have other food sensitivities or a cold/flu and need to release those toxins from your body so it can work better and feel healthier. So, drink up …

  • 1 Tbsp apple cider vinegar (raw, with ‘the mother’)
  • 2 tsp honey
  • 1/8 tsp cayenne pepper
  • 2 drops Lemon essential oil (make sure the oil you use is approved for internal use; or 1 Tbsp juice of a lemon)
  • 1/4 cup of water

Combine everything together and ENJOY! It really is delicious. I will warn you that it does have a kick to it – this spice is what helps to loosen things up in the body ;)

shamFUCKINGpoo …

Last night, I had my first stab at making shampoo. I bought what I needed (most of the ingredients I already had…most? There’s like 3 ingredients, Dawn) over a month ago, and thought way too much since then about the fact that I haven’t yet made the shampoo. Then finally did it last night and it took Five. Fucking. Minutes. Literally. Do you know how much mental energy I’ve wasted thinking about how I need to make this shampoo? … Shit, I’m running out of store-bought shampoo so I really need to make the shampoo … I need to make the shampoo before I use up all my cans of coconut milk … I wish I would set aside some time to make the shampoo … I even journaled about it for Christ sake … I stared at the empty old shampoo bottle every day as I got ready in the morning and then ready again for bed … It’s like it was looking up at me saying fill me, fill me, pretty please just fucking fill me already.

Well, I fucking filled you with all of the lovely ingredients shown above: coconut milk, castille soap, olive oil and essential oils (I chose lavender and chamomile). (Recipe c/o Wellness Mama.)

I haven’t yet used it so I can’t report on that today. I was just very excited that I made it and wanted you all to know. And in case you are worried about me, I really don’t have any anger toward myself for not making it, it just makes for a way funnier story ;) My point is though that we can waste so much time and energy on things that just really don’t matter in life, which ends up making that “thing” (i.e. making shampoo) so much less enjoyable than it could’ve been. Life really isn’t hard … we just make it that way. 

Natural shampoo, fuck yeah!!!