this GUY …

I am pretty sure I blogged about this GUY last year after I saw him live for the first time. Sean Rowe. If you didn’t listen to his music when I suggested it last year and you have a heart and a soul, you need to listen to it now. The only words I can use to describe him and his music are deep, magical and dreeeeeamy. Pretty damn good words, I’d say.

And, yes, that’s li’l ol’ me nestled into his embrace. OMG, I loved that moment. Hearts and butterflies and unicorns and all things happiness …

beautiful CHAOS …

This kind of describes my life right now … or I should say, it describes my brain right now. So many beautiful fabulous ideas and adventures swirling around in there, yet sometimes (ok, most of the time), it feels chaotic and frazzled. This is kind of how it sounds in my head … Yay!, cool idea, love this, let’s do it, I’m so excited, oh, and then there’s this other idea, so fun, I should SO do this, Woot Woot!, 75 (slight numeric exaggeration) other ideas float in, more excitement, Woo Hoo!, Yay!, let’s do all of this, I got this! … and then … fuck no, I ain’t got this. At all. I can’t possibly do all of this. I can’t even think about all of this, let alone physically do it. So, then I get stuck. Unable to do anything, because I’ve overwhelmed myself.

I have been pretty independent for most of my adult life, so asking for help with any of these ideas is new territory for me. I’ve realized over the last couple of years that I can’t do everything on my own anymore, and more importantly, I realized that I don’t WANT to. So, I suppose that all of this is new territory … I have a newfound understanding that I CAN do what I love and be abundant and happy, I do have a creative mind and soul and I need to use it regularly, I am in this world to help others heal, I am truly capable of doing anything and everything I desire … All of these realizations is why I have so many ideas and amazing things I want to do. I’m just having to learn how to say no sometimes, and to focus my attention on one task at a time, and know when to ask for help, and to trust my intuition. I use essential oils for some of these things, and I just learned of a time management technique called the Pomodoro technique (which I’m using right now as I type this) to aid in focusing. I’ve experimented with a number of different things over the past year and a half to find what works for me. Obviously, I’m still experimenting ;)

I’m not sure if I’ve shared this with you before, but I’ve struggled with time management and paying attention since I left my corporate job in 2015. Having a consistent 9-5 schedule every day is an easy lifestyle. Boring (at least for me), but easy. Now, I can do anything any time of day and have complete control over my life and career. And I’ll be honest, that’s a fucking hard transition, hence why I’m still experimenting.

It’s funny that as I’m re-reading this blog post, it sounds less cohesive than some of my other posts and a bit frazzled, if you will. Hmmmm, maybe I should go get those oils …

what is REAL anyway?


Life is seriously twisted.

The last post I shared with all of you included some very brief information about the horrific tragedy that severely shook up my friend’s life and the life of all their loved ones. I did not know the family, however, was connected by a beautiful soul, a very dear friend of mine … of ours. She called me on Wednesday evening and her voice didn’t even sound like her own. I knew that what her voice was about to speak was really bad. I never in a million years would have thought of this … that her best friend, Heather, and her 3 children died in a house fire in the middle of the night. My jaw dropped and the only word I could speak was FUCK. Followed by a long pause, and then “I have no words.” There are literally no words and I suppose no words were needed. This is something you feel. And even as an outsider, I definitely and truly felt it. I had never in my life felt that much pain for another human being. My chest tightened. My breath stopped. Eventually, the reality of this initiated a flow of tears. And so many other feelings that were beyond this conscious world.

The bizarre part of all this is that I was at Starbucks when she called me. I was in this everyday sort of place. People around me were laughing and playing with their kids and leisurely sipping their coffees while doing work or texting. And in an instant, this “scene” that I was in made no fucking sense to me. I felt like I had left my body and was floating above observing all of these things happening around me. And I couldn’t make sense of it. It didn’t feel real. Or right. How can there be such pain and suffering and such joy and peace at the same fucking time?!? And my life problems were reduced to nothing. I had no right to worry about my problems … what the fuck do they mean anyway?!

My physical body sat there on that Starbucks couch not knowing what to do or where to go. All I could think of to do at that moment was to take out my sticky notes and pens and write luv notes. Luv notes applicable to this exact moment in time – Live in the moment. Cherish every moment. Live each moment as if it’s your last. Be here now. Love yourself. – I made them while in this almost subconscious state of being. Everything seemed to slow down and looked very different to me.

Life seemed like a twisted confusing non-reality. Like this life we live every day isn’t real. It is what we all have created as our reality but this shit isn’t real. I can’t describe what “real” is though, cause I’m still livin’ in this life too…

In loving memory of Heather, Tabitha, Jason and Sean.
My love goes out to all those mourning the loss of this beautiful family.
There are no words, only a whole lot of LOVE.

LUV sticks …

luvsticks envelope label

I am so excited to be sharing LUV sticks with all of you, as I know you’ll be just as excited to hear about it! You just HAVE to LUV it. There’s really no way not to.

luvsticks.com explains how it all works, both as the giver and the receiver of these lovely handmade 1-of-a-kind LUV notes. Also, check out IG @luvsticks and follow it. Pretty please.

If you want to be a part of this luventure – which you most likely will cause if you’re reading my blog, you must be cool – there is a form on the site to request LUV notes. For the next few weeks, I am requesting donations which I will be giving 100% of to a family that recently experienced a horrific tragedy … unexplainable via words.

So much LUV from me to you …

Oh and please share this with anyone and everyone you know ;)

Hugs and Kisses.