We always have a choice.
As my dear friend Nicole once said on one very memorable drunken ladies night, “it’s all about the heart.”
I dreamt about this image last night: my hand swirled around and around in circles, over and over again in my dream. Around a tiny heart. Sometimes the heart was red and sometimes black. The image stuck with me until I rose this morning and I knew that I had to draw it … or paint it, as I did here. I had a manageable list of things to get done today … none of which I could accomplish until I put this image on paper. Over a year ago, I bought myself 2 bamboo brushes and sumi ink in order to paint some things just like this. I had never used those brushes until today. My subconscious told me it was time.
To me, this image screams: heart center. You’re like duh, Dawn, of course it does. Shush and keep reading. Everything about our existence as humans starts (and ends, I suppose) at our heart center. So many of us have forgotten that. Forgotten what that feels like. Forgotten how to do that. Forgotten how damn important this is to every single aspect of our being. And I’m one of them. I needed my subconscious dream state to remind me of this. And my conscious awareness reminds me often as well … as long as I remember ;) Seriously, this shit is not easy. I have spent many years closing up and “protecting” (this idea many of us have created for ourselves is BS though, as the more we protect it, the more pain we experience) my heart to the point where I couldn’t even feel it’s beat anymore. Talk about building a wall.
So, now what? I want to open my heart. I want to love the shit out of myself. We all have our own ways of doing this (and a whole lot of ways to ignore doing this). Some of my ways of opening are yoga and meditation and creating relationships with like-minded people and becoming a Health Coach and breathing into my heart space and trying to maintain good posture to shine my heart forward into the world (aside from right now as I type slumped over on my bed) and sharing my true self to the people around me (like writing this post, in case you hadn’t picked up on that). My life experiences have made loving me harder and harder to do. However, those are all stories created by me … and edited by me … and re-written by me … many pages of fiction about what other people thought I should be, or what society deemed appropriate at any given time, or what my SAT scores meant for my future success, or that I had to look a certain way to get dates with guys or even to find friends. None of these things really have anything to do with me – with the heart and soul that lives inside this amazing body of mine (and by amazing, I mean fascinating, not sexy, but let’s be honest people, my body is pretty sexy too). I went along with it all because I knew no better. And thank goodness I did, cause it got me here. I am an amazing person capable of loving and feeling and being every bit the soul I was brought into this world to be. I’d say it’s about time I let that shit shine!!!
This is what Health Coaching is for me. It is my place to shine, to support people in their journey to this magical place within themselves. Cause we all have it. It may just need a little, or a lot, of massaging to release it. Remind yourself of how amazing you are and of the gifts you are here to offer the world. And then remind yourself again and again. Your heart will catch on. I promise.
And, I heart you. <3
Remember I said I’d share some of my mad fauxlligraphy skillz with you, well here’s a little sample. These were name tags I made for a work event. I was so grateful to be asked to do them and soooo enjoyed the entire creative process! It’s usually more enjoyable when they look this bad ass ;)
Need some cool lettering done? Holla.
I chased the fog today, literally. I was driving home and then turned the opposite way when I exited the parkway (I know, crazy, right?!). Toward less homes and more forest. Less cars and more trees. Less congestion and more clarity. Less in my head and more in my heart … at least for a short while …
There was some snowfall yesterday and all of the turnoffs on the roads were covered in 4″ of snow. Something a Ford Focus is not cut out for. So I kept driving until I found a road to turn on, parked and ran across the street to admire and photograph the foggy forest. This was one of the first photos I took, and within a minute (for real) the fog started lifting. How quickly things can come in and out of our lives … So, I ran down the hill (felt more like a skip as I was in good spirits at the time) chasing the fog for more photo ops. Then I realized I should probably get back to my unlocked still-running car pretty much parked in the road. So, I excitedly ran back up the hill, floating through what was left of the fog.
Look at how the fog beautifully highlighted the depth of the forest! It was such a dreamy peaceful feeling for me (hence the skipping and floating). I am so grateful to have been up and out that early to catch this natural beauty :)
I just spent at least a half hour cleaning these beauties. Nooooow, it’s time to use them to make more beautiful things! As you can see, these are old school. How cool is the packaging, riiiight? They were my dad’s from back in the day, hence his name written multiple times with multiple nibs. So many nibs to choose from. I’ll start simple and small at first. Those huge nibs do get me excited though … wow, that sounded naughty ;)
As I was cleaning these, I was exploring the intricacy of these rather small objects and how they operate. Of course, I asked the question how did someone figure out how to make a nib work?! You dip this metal object in ink and it holds the ink in a tiny hole that allows it to flow consistently at each stroke. Say whaaaaa?!? Like how did you figure that out Mr. Calligraphy man?!? You are my hero.
Well, I’m off to go write a bunch of potentially meaningful words now with these fascinating pieces of art … actually, I’m going to just write each letter of the alphabet 50 times. Not quite as fun, but practice makes perfect so they say :)
Creativity is intelligence having fun. -Albert Einstein
Albert must have been one fun dude. Now, it’s our turn. Go create something. Anything. If you need some ideas, check out this word collage I created a while back! You can’t even imagine how much FUN that was to make ;)