shine MY LIGHT …

… some words that resonated with me from Deepak and Oprah’s “Shedding the Weight” 21-day meditation. I completed the 21st meditation yesterday. I am so grateful for the experience and grateful to myself for committing to and doing it to its fullest!

I haven’t stepped on a scale in a while so not sure if I shed any actual weight ;) But I do know for sure that I shed some emotional and mental weight. I have been feeling pretty darn good lately. My mind has quieted down, and I feel more connected to my body.  I’m on the right path …

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shamFUCKINGpoo …

Last night, I had my first stab at making shampoo. I bought what I needed (most of the ingredients I already had…most? There’s like 3 ingredients, Dawn) over a month ago, and thought way too much since then about the fact that I haven’t yet made the shampoo. Then finally did it last night and it took Five. Fucking. Minutes. Literally. Do you know how much mental energy I’ve wasted thinking about how I need to make this shampoo? … Shit, I’m running out of store-bought shampoo so I really need to make the shampoo … I need to make the shampoo before I use up all my cans of coconut milk … I wish I would set aside some time to make the shampoo … I even journaled about it for Christ sake … I stared at the empty old shampoo bottle every day as I got ready in the morning and then ready again for bed … It’s like it was looking up at me saying fill me, fill me, pretty please just fucking fill me already.

Well, I fucking filled you with all of the lovely ingredients shown above: coconut milk, castille soap, olive oil and essential oils (I chose lavender and chamomile). (Recipe c/o Wellness Mama.)

I haven’t yet used it so I can’t report on that today. I was just very excited that I made it and wanted you all to know. And in case you are worried about me, I really don’t have any anger toward myself for not making it, it just makes for a way funnier story ;) My point is though that we can waste so much time and energy on things that just really don’t matter in life, which ends up making that “thing” (i.e. making shampoo) so much less enjoyable than it could’ve been. Life really isn’t hard … we just make it that way. 

Natural shampoo, fuck yeah!!!

orchiDELIRIUM …

  delirium. noun. 1. a more or less temporary disorder of the mental faculties, as in fevers, disturbances of consciousness, or intoxication, characterized by restlessness, excitement, delusions, hallucinations, etc. 2. a state of violent excitement or emotion.

Orchidelirium is the name of the orchid exhibit at the New York Botanical Gardens in the Bronx. From the definition above (c/o dictionary.com), I should have had a rather intense experience and possibly hurt people while I was there. That is not exactly what happened. My self-definition would be a temporary disorder (disorder? … that word sounds so negative!) of the mental faculties, through intoxication (sensory – sight, smell, touch … I totally ignored the “do not touch the plants” signs), characterized by excitement. Hmmm, I kinda like the dictionary.com definition better …

And here’s some other magical plantness we saw amongst the tropical rain forest of the Bronx. So much natural beauty and detail to observe and ponder …

. all creation comes from love .

march of LINES …

Some meditatively repetitive doodling. When I was younger, I used to get so agitated by repetition of any kind (i.e. drawing repetitive shapes, hearing or writing repeated words/letters, being touched repeatedly in the same place on my body, etc). I truly believe that a meditation practice and self-awareness has helped alter this for me over the years. I realize that sometimes the agitation is due to an emotional blockage I may need to work through in my body. And if I keep going, the agitation dissipates. And sometimes, I just gotta stop before I explode … although exploding isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Get it out! Release! This is kind of hard to explain to you, but I felt like sharing it anyway. Ok bye now.

tune into your SOUL …

Ever been listening to a song and a verse relates to that exact moment in your life? This has happened to me a number of times in my life and always when I’m more emotionally connected to music. Today, I was literally trying to find my umbrella in the backseat of my car as KT Tunstall (don’t ask, I busted out some old CDs to listen to in my car cause the radio is so terrible) sang the lyrics “trying to find my umbrella.” No joke. I found my umbrella at that exact moment, held it in my hands and let out a jolly heartfelt laugh. And then busted out my phone to write this. We can create even without intention. Be mindful of these amazing synchronicities in life. This shit is real.

to soft skin + loving YOU …

Last night’s creation – lotion bars! Aren’t they pretty? And the scent is chocolate peppermint. If you could smell them, you would want to eat them too. Which is not completely out of the question, except for maybe the beeswax part ;)

They are super easy to make – equal parts of cocoa butter (or shea or mango), coconut oil and beeswax; plus 20 drops of your essential oil of choice. And then some other stuff happens … if you want the complete recipe, I’d love to share it with you!

My goal is to make all of my beauty products, ok maybe 90% cause I ain’t making mascara and eyebrow makeup. Good thing I’m just naturally beautiful and don’t need to use a lot of them ;)

You are all naturally beautiful too. Look at yourself in the mirror today and find one – just one, however big or small – thing about yourself that you love. Trust me, I know it’s not easy. It’s taken me 38 years to be able to do this. And you can too!

 

find THE love !

I was stamping a little something earlier (which you will see in the near future) and this cool ‘still-life’ photo came to be.

Personally, I am self-lovin’ today by taking a day of rest. I am always going and going, doing amazing things that I absolutely love and enjoy. However, even busying ourselves with things we love and enjoy needs a break and a restart every so often! So far, I’ve gone to yin yoga, meditated (Deepak, obviously), mindfully and gratefully ate a delicious home-cooked lunch, posting this now, and about to catch up on New Girl episodes and reading … the past, present and future of my day ;)

Now go and stamp your love all over the place today, and make sure a little of that love goes straight to you !!!

New Girl awaits …