Another Omega creation that I’m kind of in love (or should I say “joy”) with. Hope you find joy in looking at it too :)
Happy Year of Leaps! OMG, frogs leap … leap frog … bet you didn’t see that coming …
I’ve had a cold for the past few days so the only thing I’ve created is a giant pile of dirty tissues. My sickness came about as I was creating a negative environment within my body, full of old feelings of anger, hurt and frustration toward a person close to me, which then changes to anger, hurt and frustration toward myself for allowing this negativity to “control” me for so long. This is not the first time I have made myself sick in this way, so I’m quite aware of what I created here. I just hadn’t realized it soon enough before fucking with my immune system. So, here I am, NOW … and I need to either accept and move past the past or I need to talk to this person about working toward a healthier relationship. I’m going with option 2 which is super difficult, but I’m ready. It can only make me stronger, our relationship stronger and make this easier for me to do in future loving relationships. I want to be more open and vulnerable and stop being so guarded. I know this guardedness is holding me back from being my true self and the creative genius I really know I’m capable of being. If you read my post yesterday, you read about the connection I made between an open heart and creativity. I want that. Always. And forever. And ever.
So how’s about I share my whole creative rebirth story with you?! First off, I mentioned that I lived at a retreat center for 2 months (read that story here for those of you who may not be in the loop). As you know this is where the official rebirth took place. I’m making this sound so serious, like some spirit came down and magically turned me into a creative being again (immaculate creativity, say whaaat?!) … well, Omega is a pretty spiritual place so maybe that’s EXACTLY what happened!
For a bunch of months before quitting my job, I was having a lot of pain in my wrists and hands. I know you’re thinking carpal tunnel, oh NO! Exactly … NO, that wasn’t what was happening here. I wasn’t sure what it was, but I could feel it was something more, something deeper and more intense. It would get really bad at work and I’d have to shake out my hands a lot or get up and walk around. The feeling made me super anxious and uncomfortable throughout my entire body. I get this same feeling when I’m on mobile devices for too long and it makes me want to scream sometimes. Yeah, that’s my cue to Put. It. Down.
From my life coach, I learned that your arms and hands are directly connected to your heart. And at Omega, this kept coming up for me in the first few weeks. My heart was kinda shut down, so it was really starting to make sense why my hands hurt so bad when I did things that did not follow my true heart’s passion. This is when it also started clicking for me that doing something creative with my hands would make my heart feel good and help to open it up. So there’s this reciprocal action: I work on opening my heart … I will be more creative. I work on being more creative … my heart opens up. Well, this sounded like a beautiful plan! Win win!
Of course, Omega got this concept like forever ago, hence why they have art classes and an amazing “Art Hut” (it literally is a little hut for art) for all the staff to utilize!!! Picture a small building where every wall is covered in arts and crafts supplies from floor to ceiling, everything from beads to markers to magazines to paint to feathers to fabric to coloring books to googly eyes (yes, I said googly eyes) and, shit, I couldn’t even remember it all if I tried. And tools such as sewing machine, easels, hammers, paper cutter, etc etc etc. If you could only have seen my face as I entered this small heavenly space, my eyes opened real wide, my jaw dropped and my heart started racing (see, that’s why the word heart has the word art in it. Duhhh.). It was the most amazing sight ever. I instantly realized that I need one of these spaces in my future.
Once I came down from my artgasm, I had no clue what to make! So, I started with learning how to knit. My grandma had taught me to crochet when I was little, but I had never knit before. The gal that oversaw the art hut taught me how to do just that. To be honest, I didn’t like it that much and was quite frustrated at first. I stuck with it though as I knew it could get easier, and it did. However, it still never really felt right for me so I haven’t continued knitting since I left Omega. Maybe another time in my life, I’ll pick it up again.
I then took a class on calligraphy. I’ve always loved hand-writing, so this was perfect for me. And, it truly was perfection. I learned techniques and fun ways to use calligraphy markers.
I also took a bamboo brush ink class. It was very free flowing, and I actually let loose a little bit. Remember, I come from a design background of producing very detailed, technical drawings, and being loose wasn’t necessarily my thing. The extra fun part about this class was that my friend Sara was visiting me for the weekend and she got to enjoy the class with me! Then, we went to my friend Stacey’s African dance class afterward. Speaking of not being loose … I’m not much of a dancer, but her class was super fun regardless of whether or not I actually got it ;). Artsy day for us gals.
Now, let me tell you about Mr. Alan Leon. Alan was the artist-in-residence for most of the time that I was at Omega. He taught the art classes and had wonderful creative energy and talent. I attribute a lot of my creative rebirth to his presence. The importance of creativity in my life really hit me at his calligraphy class. I LOVED it, like seriously LOVED it. So, he brought this new art form to my attention (new to me, of course!) and it was something I thoroughly enjoyed and was naturally good at. Go me! Alan is an inspiration in art and life :)
I hope to be as inspirational in just being me. This blog is one avenue and I know many more will be uncovered as I continue my journey. Thanks to all of you for coming along for the ride!
Live. Love. Create.
I can’t take credit for this one, but the talent is obviously in the family … this is one of my dad’s many photos. And it is exhibited, along with others, at the Piermont Flywheel Gallery as I type. My dad’s work is part of a 6-person photography exhibit titled Camera Works. I went on Sunday and was intrigued by how diverse everyone’s photography skillz were. If you are local to Rockland County, it would be lovely to check it out, plus Piermont is so pretty (bonus!). Great art and a walk along the water … sounds like a perfect weekend day to me :)
Camera Works is on display from 02 . 18 . 16 until 03 . 06 . 16.
Share with your friends / family, check it out and ENJOY!
My amazing life coach, Michelle, used to send me mantra images fairly often. Sometimes, I would make them my phone’s lock screen photo. This one, I decided to write out and keep near me. I may have wrote this mantra out when I was at Omega and not using my phone much ;)
Michelle also mentioned early on in our sessions that nothing in life is done TO you, everything is done FOR you. Life feels very different when you look at it from this perspective …
Some of you are new blog followers and new friends to me and were not a part of (and may not be aware of) my past blogventures. So, I figured since you love creative rebirth so much, you might want to check out the others in your spare time (spare time? … what is this “spare time” that you speak of, Dawn?). As always, I promise not to disappoint :)
My very first blog experience was interesting, and learning how to do it was quite frustrating, but the end result was pretty bad ass: where i’m at – 2013 Photo-a-day blog, 365 days of my sightings in NYC. The first 3.5 months of the year are here (don’t ask); the rest of the year is here.
My brother, Matt, thought it was so bad ass that he turned my photos into a canvas art piece, choosing his favorite photo from each month. And he gave it to me for Christmas that year. Yeah, he’s pretty cool too ;)
Then, last year, in a creative exploration of self love, this blog was created: self[ie] love – 21 days of selfies. So, 21 photos of l’il ol’ me. Be honest … you can’t wait to check these out.
You can draw and create on anything … even the Catholic Times ;)
No one gets newspapers anymore, but this one shows up on my mom’s driveway every so often. In case you’re curious, I am not a crazy Catholic … if I was, I would probably feel guilty defacing their newspaper. But, hey, I did make it look pretty cool. Plus, the word ‘pornography’ takes it up another notch.
The moral of this story: Try looking at things around you from a different viewpoint. They don’t all have to have one purpose/meaning, unless you let them.
It’s time to get out of your own way!!! I’ve been blocking myself for years and years and still working on it as I type. If you’ve never failed, then you’ve never tried something new … pretty sure I read that quote, or something close to that, on Instagram or Facebook yesterday … I know you get the point ;)
I drew this a while ago, but this day of LOVE seems the most appropriate time to share it :)
Have a LOVE-filled day today and always !!!