I took this photo from the top of Hook Mountain on the morning of my birthday. It was a gorgeous day, a perfect day really, and not just because I was born on that day. (Although, let’s be honest, the world became a better place when I joined it.) The weather was glorious. As you can see, the sun sparkled on the Hudson River, the sky was clear blue and there was stillness all around me. And this view, OMG. I could sit here for hours, however, on this day, my desire was to move my body around outside! The bridge in the background is the Tappan Zee Bridge (this description is of course for the many non-New Yorkers that follow my blog). There are actually 2 bridges there, one old and one new. The new is currently under construction and makes for really fascinating, and dangerous, site-seeing when driving across the old bridge. It is pretty damn cool to see this 3 mile long bridge go up though!
Might seem weird to compare my birthday to this bridge, but this is what came up for me around this observation! As I view the old and the new together, I think about my life and my being. Per the numbers, I am getting “older” … yet I feel “newer.” Newer is a better adjective, for me anyway, than younger. When I came into this world, everything was new. I was innocent and observant and fearless and open and loving. I knew no different and had no way of knowing any different … YET. I am still that person, that is all still inside me. However, I am having to relearn it all and reclaim my beautiful open self. I am aware of it and work on it in some magnitude every day of my life now. So, each day, I really do feel newer. New to how I view things. New to how I accept and embrace things. New to how I feel about myself. New to how I feel about others. When you live in the present moment, every moment is new. Doesn’t that sound way more exciting than living in the painful past or having expectations for a future that may never come? Trust me, I know it’s not easy, but it’s absolutely possible for all of us. And it starts with awareness. Come on, let’s do this together … can you say TEAMWORK!?!?
Ok seriously, who doesn’t LOVE fall and all the shit that comes with it? If you don’t, we need to talk. Message me! ;)
Look at these piles of beauty. I went to 2 farms within 2 days and took 2 million photos of gourds and corn stalks and pumpkins ranging from tiny to enormous and specialty pumpkins that look like they belong in Cinderella and green ones and ones with warts and ones that look like giant squashes and … shit, I can’t even list all of them. You get it, if you get that fall is the bomb. I may be posting these photos all the way through winter cause I got some pretty good shots. Although, I can’t take full credit for how good they are, because pumpkins make pretty fabulous models even without much airbrushing or filtering. Yes, I may be biased because I am an autumnal baby (as in I was born today 39 years ago). But let’s be honest, I know you all want to relive the beauty of this season along with me for the next few months. So get ready for a whole lot of orange in your inbox ;)
Just put those anywhere. Oh, here’s some lovely bushes and trees. That’ll be a perfect spot to throw a bunch of broken down crates. This isn’t a typical place for these objects, but if we did everything “typically,” life would be really fucking boring. Plus they add some serious character to those plants!
“If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” -Dr. Wayne Dyer
A pre-birthday celebration with my city family (brother Matt, cousin Kat and her hubby Dan, friend Sara) in the country. They journeyed up to these parts to go apple picking, eat BBQ and drink beer. The day started with some hiccups (train delays, traffic, change of plans) and ended up being exactly what we wanted (or at least, what I wanted!). It was a fabulously fun fall day of climbing apple trees, laughing at stupid jokes, shoving loads of meat in our mouths, and washing it down with pumpkin ale. Go ahead, you can borrow our day plans cause everyone should have a taste of this ;)
Have a Happley Monday!!!!
Who needs art stores when you have nature? OK, not really, cause I kinda love my drawing pens like A LOT. On this day though, nature was my canvas and my medium. Nature allows me to free my mind in order to create. And not just create pretty pinwheels of autumn leaves…create ANYTHING. (FYI I’m an arteest outside the woods also.)
Almost one year ago, I took a lovely art class on ‘nature sculpture’ when I was living at Omega. We walked around the woods and made art with sticks and leaves and moss and rocks and broken glass (if it’s there, you might as well use it). I had never looked at nature in that way before, and it was extremely calming and meditative to create in this way. So, as I was walking among the colorful fallen leaves the other day, it seemed the exact perfect time to make something beautiful.
We’ve had a bunch of gloomy days here lately, and look what today brought! A beautiful sunshiny day. On days like this, I like to take myself to the woods and soak up some nature and feel the sun peering through the leaves. Today was a day of ‘shining on’ for me. I mean, honestly, what day isn’t? … however, the trick is to actually acknowledge it. Today, I went to the gym and the chiropractor to continue healing my body, then went to the woods to continue healing my soul, then went to the library to continue healing my mind. I took test #3 for school … 3/4s of the way through my program!!! Major accomplishment. And I’m acknowledging that. For those that know me well, you know I’m not so good at that acknowledging part. Without acknowledging and celebrating those accomplishments, the things we do in life are kinda pointless. So, I’m working on changing that. One accomplishment at a time … shit, I’ll be praising myself all the time then ;)
Guess what, Dawn? You’re awesome. Now accept it.
What wonderfully small or large thing have you accomplished in the past few days that you haven’t brought awareness to and praised yourself for?? Please share your awesomeness!
On Sunday, I picked up (as in held, not picked up in a car) my nieces and it felt so good. Ignore the fact that that sounds creepy. But, as y’all know, I couldn’t really play with my nieces or pick them up or throw them around (in a fun safe way, of course) with my shoulder pain. I avoided lifting pretty much everything for at least 4 weeks. In that time, I went on vacation and made my friends lift my luggage in and out of cars (love you guys!), I stopped going to the gym, I couldn’t vacuum at work … well, let’s be honest here, I couldn’t even lift my arm itself let alone heavy objects. So, obviously, small humans were not an option. While I was on vacation, my shoulder started to feel unbelievably better and has been feeling so ever since. It just needed a vacation! See how your body can heal when you escape for a bit?! The pain is pretty much gone, and I can move it and lift things again. There is some soreness in the area that’s been bothering me for all these years, and I am also working on getting full range of motion back. I feel positive that I will free this stuckness and be able to move my arm even better than before the frozen shoulder! Hopefully, I can make that happen by throwing my 2.5 year old niece in the air and doing cartwheels with my 7 year old niece…should be fine, right?
I’m so grateful for everyone’s support while I was temporarily dysfunctional. My work team was extremely helpful and understanding. My mom did passive assist arm movements for me since it hurt too much to engage my own muscles. My chiropractor adjusted, lasered and massaged me to decrease the pain and start putting parts back where they belong. My dad gave me money to help with my chiropractor appointments as I didn’t have health insurance at the time. My family and friends checked in to see how I was feeling. My cat snuggled with me. And even I felt more supportive of myself through taking time to rest and breathe. Allow myself to … support myself.
No matter your age, make sure to squeeze some play into your day. It helps to have kids around for sure! I don’t play much myself (so I need to take my own advice) until my nieces are around. And there is no better play than that :)
Check out my beautiful smoothie bowl … ok, I honestly have no idea what a smoothie bowl is. However, these are all things I would put in a smoothie, soooo … and I suppose I can call my dish whatever I want, right? Enough about the technicalities, let’s talk about how pretty it is. It’s all about the looks after all. Ok, fine … and the taste. Luckily it tasted as good as it looked. You wanna know what makes up this good lookin’ bowl of nutrition? I mashed up half of a ripe banana in some coconut milk, then added fresh raspberries, my homemade paleo granola, chia seeds and cacao nibs. Daaaaamn.