such brilliant PLYdeas …

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So, it took me almost 2 years to get these guys on Etsy. I don’t want to keep hogging these furniture pieces all to myself anymore! Actually, they’ve been wrapped in blankets and  hiding in a room with many boxes of other things not being used. It’s time they go to new owners who can enjoy and appreciate them EVERY DAY for their beauty and hard work.

Please take a moment to check out my Etsy shop and share it with anyone who might also appreciate these unique, completely one-of-a-kind, handmade furniture pieces. All were designed by me and 2 were built by me as well (Curves and Elements). The other pieces were built by a woodworking friend who was quite accepting and patient with my rather particular designer tendencies ;)

If you’re interested in the stories of how these pieces came to be, click on their names below …

Elements
Cubey
Curves
Intersect
10 Blocks
23 Degrees
Triple D

And then there’s my first born which is not for sale. This is where it all started, so you may want to read this story first ;)

THANK YOU for taking the time to check out my creations for the 1st or 10th time!!!

XO Dawn

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butterfly WISDOM …

I was outside my house this morning watching, like really watching, this amazing monorchid buterfly (it is actually the one in the photo). That orange and black beauty was a busy bee (or…ummm…butterfly), flying back and forth constantly, only stopping momentarily on a flower or a bush. It flew directly over my head, and at first, I thought it was a leaf falling from a tree. But wait, the leaves aren’t orange yet, silly.

So, I started watching. And it fluttered its wings for a bit, then it coasted, fluttered, coasted … worked, relaxed, worked, relaxed. How beautiful that animals in nature instinctively know how to do that – when to take a break so they can keep doing what they need to do. Humans, not so much. We work, work, work, work, work, (oh Rihanna, you know what I’m sayin’), and then work a little more. Until we crassssshhhhh and in many cases, buuuuuurn. Work for me often means self-work – constantly working to grow and be a happier me, to find my true passion in this life. Yes, that is super amazing work. And it can also be draining for mind, body, soul if I never take the time to rest and let the work integrate. Sometimes you gotta just coast, which could be taking a nap, going to the beach, hanging with friends, watching a movie … it will look different to all of us.

Seeing this butterfly today was a welcome reminder that I need to take breaks as well, to let things flow. I learn from nature everyday, and it always amazes me as if I’m seeing it for the very first time …

spreadin’ some LOVE …

I hike this mountain fairly often and this morning, I came upon this. There are a whole lot of hateful words on the top of this mountain so I was happy to see this (minus the fact that someone vandalized nature). And speaking of vandalizing nature, I left a LUV sticks up there today too ;) Spread some love wherever you can – through words, actions, energy, whatever feels right to you and your fabulously beating heart – the world needs it! ♥

are you POSITIVE ?

I was driving home from yoga this morning and I saw this sign in the distance that read “Dance Meditation” and I perked up a bit thinking that sounds interesting. Only the sign didn’t say that at all. I drove a little closer to it and saw that it actually read “Divorce Mediation.” I chuckled at the inconsistency of these 2 very opposing things. And then said to myself, well, shit, I have quite the positive mindset :)

I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately – about my positivity, that is. I am in a place now where I can appreciate and accept all that comes into my life as being part of my journey, even and especially the challenges. Now, I admit, I am still human and sometimes I feel like my hormones think for me (ya know what I’m sayin’), so my positive mindset isn’t always in control. For the most part though, it reins and it feels fucking fabulous! This is such an amazing place to be and so different then where I once was.

Test it out … find something positive in a seemingly “negative” situation (I promise you, it’s in there). The key to changing is trusting in everything that comes your way. That it is all meant for you to grow and love and live a fulfilling happy life :)

And I am living and loving proof that it works. XO

 

my body SPEAKS …

Discomfort. Pain. Tension. Agitation. Nausea. I have learned to be intune to my body. To listen. And right now, with all of those feelings happening at once, it’s got something pretty important to say. Releasing old wounds can lead to discomfort. As can holding onto them. I’m not quite sure which it is for me right now. Or maybe a combination? What I do know is that it feels soooo incredibly uncomfortable. I’m trying to sit with it and learn from it, as much as I want to push it away and ignore it. Only thing is, my body has made it too intense to ignore. It knows me all too well at this point. And for that I am grateful. Grateful to myself for all of the work I’ve done to get to this deep place within myself. Grateful even for the pain. And I will be so so grateful for the light that’s on the other side of this pain, as I know that’s where I’m headed. I will keep working to be patient and listen and accept all that comes my way. However, I’m not opposed to this discomfort subsiding sooner than later ;)

GREEN machine …

Green is the color of the heart chakra. Green is also the last name of my best friend. Coincidence? Hell no. [Insert a little fact about me: I don’t believe in coincidence.]

We have some mad crazy awesome synchronistic connection. The universe brought our beautiful souls together 10 or so years ago (she’d remember timing better then I). Although, the amount of time doesn’t matter anyway, as we were connected on this path long before we ever physically met at DPA Architects in Scottsdale, AZ. Oh, such fond memories …

Currently, we live on complete opposite sides of the country. We talk less now than we used to, yet our lives are more connected than ever. We seem to go through major life transitions around the same time. I left my NYC life around the same time a job in San Francisco came up for her (I left a big city, she moved to one!). The other night, we unintentionally journaled and contemplated the same topic: forgiveness. We’ve texted each other at the same exact time when we haven’t texted in days. We’ve sent each other things that are completely in line with something we are dealing with at that exact moment. This year, I sent her a birthday card with a green tea cup on it that said “Happy Birthday Best Tea” (adorable, I know). I had purchased it well in advance of her birthday, and just prior to me mailing it, she sent me a gift from her trip to Ireland: a pretty package of tea and a green tea cup. Yeah, that’s the kinda shit I’m talkin’ about.

For a while, we found this bizarre. Now, we are used to it and understand that this is our relationship. We are spiritually linked through the universe even while living thousands of miles away. It is really hard to put a relationship like this into words … if you’ve had one though, you know exactly what I’m talking about. It’s so magical to have this type of connection with anyone, and I’m so incredibly grateful that it’s with her :)

I’d also like to add, as it is just as important, we get each others’ sense of humor! She makes me laugh. Like for real laugh. She can send me a 2-word text that’ll crack me up. And, we can hear each other’s tone and voices through text which makes our correspondence that much funnier. We just get each other. And not too many people get us ;) Which is why we work. And why it’s easy. And amazing.

What’s also amazing is this little story: Green and I traveled last August/September together, spending 4 days in Phoenix and then made our way to California for 6 days. Every day of that vacation, we were blessed with heart-shaped “things” along our path. “Things” refer to fried eggs, rock formations, artwork, latte art, a potato pancake, graffiti, etc. All hearts. Following us along our journey together. We knew they were signs and weren’t quite sure of the meaning yet, so we embraced it, laughed about it, shared it, loved it.

Now, I can see that those hearts were a sign of opening up. For both of us. Opening our hearts to others. To each other. And, most importantly, to ourselves. We both have been on quite the adventure this past year and a half. Learning to find ourselves again and to love ourselves more deeply then ever. And I know that we were meant to be on this spiritual ride together. And giiiirlfriend, this ride ain’t over, so get strapped in and remember I’m here to support you and love you through it all. You are my human heart chakra … those are some big shoes to fill, huh?. No pressure. Just keep bein’ Green.

big BLUE …

Blue. The color associated with the throat chakra. Blue. The color of my eyes. Interestingly, I had kept both of them partially closed up to all those around me – strangers, loved ones, myself – for most of my past life.

Throat chakra … communication, speaking your truth, expression. Today, I took a beautiful meditation class at M N D F L in Greenwich Village. In the middle of the meditation, I got an intense tickle in my throat and REALLY needed to cough. However, I did not feel inclined to break the stillness in the room with a cough attack. So, I held it back. And my eyes started to tear. And I was quickly reminded of being a child afraid to cough for fear of attracting attention to my “noise.” How sad, right? And coughing was no different than my words. I was afraid of being heard. Afraid of being me. And so I held it back, kept it all inside. No wonder holding in a cough results in tears. Coughing is a vocal release. It is part of my voice (not my “noise”). And I have definitely learned that holding in my words will also result in tears. It may have taken some years, but those guys flow easier these days. It’s my time to release. Time to be free of those old stories. Time to express who I am and fuck being afraid of it. I’m the only one afraid of me. Let’s be honest, everyone else thinks I’m pretty rad.

My eyes. Those big blue beauties – if I let them be, anyway. I’ve also held them back. Kept them tucked away under squinty half-opened eyelids. If people can’t see ALL of my eyes, then they can’t see me and what I’m REALLY about. Who’s that hurting? Yup, you guessed it – me again! I’ve actually noticed that my eyes are tired of being half-open … I don’t know what muscles are in my face that control my eyelids, but they’re tiiiiired of squinting for 30+ years. Now, I’m working on that face muscle memory ;) and awareness of the tightness that just doesn’t feel good anymore. The beautiful thing is that when I open my eyes wide, I can see the world. Like a whole bunch more of it. And I feel like I’m a bigger part of it. And I feel more open to welcoming in others.

Open your throat (or voice for a less gruesome visual). Let yourself be heard.
Open your eyes. Let yourself be seen.
And your heart will automatically open as well …

what a DAY …


I truly love my name as it signifies the start of a new day. Every day. Yeah, I’m a pretty big deal.

Every morning (lately anyway), I arise at 7am. Even though the sunshine streaming through my windows and my early-riser of a cat (Luna, my ass … that’s her name: Luna) tell me I should wake up even earlier. Then, as most of us do, I go pee. Then I return to my room and my piled-up-yoga-blanket meditation seat for a 10-15 minute meditation. RPM as they call it: Rise, Pee, Meditate. And at the end of every meditation, I give thanks for my beautiful body and the beautiful earth for supporting me in my practice. How beautiful (come on, it’s just such a great word!) to start every day giving gratitude, and especially to the new day (i.e. Dawn).

Giving thanks to me and acknowledging my body and what it does for me is also a pretty big deal. I spent many years – ok, basically my entire life – working on my body (through exercise and then many years eating healthy), yet rarely acknowledged what I was actually doing for myself. I didn’t admire my body. Or congratulate myself. Or embrace the positive feelings and energy associated with exercise and eating well. Often, I wanted more and so nothing was ever quite good enough. I would do it though, and I would do it a lot. And then, I would go on with the rest of my days. Like working out for hours didn’t mean anything. Though, deep deep down, at a subconscious level, I knew it did and I knew I needed it to feel confident in my skin. Mostly, working out and eating well was all I had to feel confident. Well shit, I should be grateful for that too then! Thanks again body for doing what you needed even though I didn’t yet understand – YOU ROCK!

Today, following RPM, I went for a hike. My body and the earth connecting at the deepest level (for me, anyway). Connected physically and spiritually and everything in between. Such gratitude for my overall health to be able to hike steep mountains (I made that possible! – remember, I’m a big deal) and to the exquisite nature that surrounds me where I live right now. Such a BEAUTIFUL combination.

beautiful food with BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE …

This looks like a pile of food scraps. Ok, it is a pile of food scraps. And so much more. Mixed in there is a whole lotta love and energy and beauty.

I had nothing to do with this pile of beauty other than joyously eating EVERYTHING that was made from the other more edible parts of these plants. So, I suppose I played my part quite well, thank you very much.

This past Memorial Day weekend, I spent some time at my cousin’s home in Katonah, NY. They had a lovely party with delectable food and even more delectable people.

I was quickly reconnected to the joy I have for cooking and for being around deep like-minded people. Ahhh, so refreshing. First the cooking … as I mentioned, I cooked none of it. However, watching others easily and lovingly move around the kitchen reminded me of, well, me. I look forward to the day that I make that an important part of my life again. And especially to having someone to share that with.

Even more importantly, obviously, were the people I met. I haven’t talked that much in a loooong time! Ok, yes, I was drinking. And that may have contributed slightly to my seemingly excessive talking (or a lot … who knows, I was drinking). When I find myself conversing with like-minded people, I have soooooo much more to talk about and it’s soooooo much less scary to share who I am.

I was a very quiet shy gal growing up and really only until a few years ago. However, many people have told me that they never saw me as shy. Man, it is so interesting what we tell ourselves. So, at this point in my life, I seek and manifest other similarly fabulous humans that I feel comfortable being my true self with. And I can tell rather quickly when we are not on the same page (only took 39 years! … and still learning …). These 2 wonderful new humans were so easy to talk with, to share with and we had a whole lot in common. I felt like I talked waaaaaay too much, and didn’t inquire as much about them. I have a million questions I could’ve asked (and still can, thanks to technology and connections). They were incredibly interesting deep passionate amazing beings. I love being reminded that they truly do exist out there! And that I am welcoming more and more of them into my world. Woot woot! Ok, so back to my story (am I talking too much again?!) … since I didn’t speak much for a good chunk of my life, when I do, it tends to feel like I’m talking too much or overpowering the conversation. Because it feels different and uncomfortable. Interestingly though, it also feels exciting and satisfying. A bit confusing for me to process sometimes. I need to get used to it though. Talking. Speaking my truth. Sharing who I am. I am so grateful for the people that welcome that and are open to that and embrace my truth. Ahhh, so refreshing.

My gratitude also extends to Greg and Elise for a wonderful party and a relaxing Monday and for also accepting me as me.

XO to all

make a WISH …

The difference between a flower and a weed is judgement.” -unknown

Came across this fabulous quote on Instagram recently. Nature is beautiful in every shape and form and color … ok, in every single way.

If you can see beauty in this photo, you can see beauty in you. No judgement necessary.